My parents are divorced. It really pisses me off that when my dad calls, all I have to look forward to is bad-mouthing my mother, saying that where I live sucks, and that I should move out to where he is. He tries to bribe me by saying I can drive a fancy sports car (which I don't even want), and he'll find me some anime clubs to join, and all that crap.
He says my mother gives up too easily, and that she has "LOADS" of time, but how the hell does he know? I don't want to move to him, and leave behind my stuff, my friends, my dog, and my mother. I also hate going on planes, but it's not like I can ride one without a passport. He can't even take a trip down to the passport office to sign the freaking papers. I don't want to say that I hate him, but I do. I loathe him. He also tries to guilt me into it saying my half-sister talks about me all the time, and how her friends all have big sisters and she doesn't get to see hers. If he really cared, he wouldn't have stopped visiting me 5 years ago and would understand my fear of getting onto planes. (Yes I know it's irrational, shut up.) He's saying my mother is at fault for how I am, and why I'm so shy. Maybe I just am? I can't get enough nerve to tell him straight up. And I can't tell my mom, she'll just get offended and unhappy and try to get me to tell her exactly what happened or my dad will start court action and then I'll HAVE to move away. It pisses me off. I have to tell him straight up on the phone... I just hope I can.
FML. I've cried 3 times today.