Damn restraining order.

my stepdad pushed me and therefore my boyfriend went off on him.
maybe a little too much because he broke his nose in two places.
but i think that asshole deserves it because he told my mom that i "slipped" that he was just "restraining" me.
WHAT THE fork?!
to make it all worse my sister joins in the fight for no apparent reason and hits my boyfriend with a steal chair.
what is this WWE?!?!?
so the police were called and my boyfriend was arrested.
i HATE living in my house WITH A PASSION, i can promise you that.
and knowing that i wont be able to see my boyfriend for a while i tell the police that i rather be dead than live at my house.
and you know what that means right..
i was 51/50
they took me to a mental hospital where i stayed for a whole week and my roomate was a girl who hallucinates and hears things.
fantastic.
then i get transferred to some group home place where i stayed for another week.
i find out theres a restraining order against me step dad and my boyfriend.
i thought that sucked.
because weve been dating for almost a year and im used to seeing him every single day and hes my bestfriend and i love him with everything i have to love.
and now he cant come over.
see, i thought THIS was bad.
untill my dumb ass sisters testifies against him in court, gets him in more trouble and now theres a restraining order against me and my boyfriend.
the love of my life.
now i cant have any contact with him?!?
this is the worst thing that could've ever happened to me.
fork my family and fork the court system.
fork everything.

oh. and to top it all off my mom has taken away ALL my freedom.
she changed the locks on my door disconnected my phone AND house phone and drilled my loopy window shut.
what the hell?
im so upset.
i hate my sister and my stepdad and my mother.
they can go suck a dick.
really though.
ughhh.
the restraining order might be dropped after the trial is over but he has to pay a 50,000 bail. or..idk how bail works. if its 10%..5,000$
which is still A LOT.
i feel horrible.
he was only defending me.
i am so pissed off...really.

oh oh. and then after i missed two weeks of school i come back and then a friend of mine who i haven't spoken to in a while asks me "why dont we ever talk anymore its like we aren't friends bla hla blah blah" ugh i really dont care.
then another friend said "yeah, it's kinda loopy up how you treat her"
then she called me a "pussy ass bitch"
what the hell?
what a dumbass.
for one thing. i have been through A LOT these past couple of weeks.
i dont have time for childish drama.
i really don't. im way above them in many many ways.
im not apart of that highschool immature nagging friendship anymore.
they can just suck it. really.
they're incompassionate and theyre going no where in their lives.
they all talk shit behind one anothers backs and pop exstacy like theres no tommorow.
they have no future and they have no lives.
they're not happy and yet they've never went through ANYTHING i've went through.
not just uncluding the incident that hapened but ive had some SERIOUS traumatic stuff happen to me in my past.
they dont care though. they just care about themselves.
my boyfriend is my only outlet i have from all this.
but i cant even see him.
idk what to do but i dont really think theres much to do.
im a strong person and i think time will heal all.
but holy shit...im sick of people. seriously.

..I really don't know what to say. But I know that if I was you're friend, I wouldn't annoy you. Or take drugs, but that's just me. I admire your boyfriend for sticking up for you like that. I dunno, does jail allow mail? If they do, you could always send him snail mail (which is romantic lol). I hope your life gets better, and I suppose you should save up A LOT of money to move or rent out a cheap apartment. Or somehow remove your restraining order and pay your boyfriends bail. Somehow. I'm giving bad advice, I know.

well he's out of jail now so that's good.
we haven't spoken much though because of the restraining order.
it sucks ass.
but the trial should be ending soon and HOPEFULLY once the trial ends the restraining order will be dropped too.
If not it'll be up to my mom to drop and...that's not looking too good.
i miss him so much.
but you know what its good because i realize who my true friends are.
Yeah i'd love to move out already, shit.
My boyfriends already been saving up hella money so by time i turn eighteen we'll be good to go.
Too bad it's over a year away =/

ugh so the restraining order will not be lifted.
not for three years.
three years!!
i have been with my boyfriend for about a year and i love him more than anything.
three years?
i can't beleive it..
it's up to my mom is she wants to lift it but i doubt it but i mean she's satans whore so...
what more do i need to say?
it can also be lifted once i turn eighteen with is less than three years, it's maybe a year and and seven months.
which isn't too far away.
but if you love someone, every second hurts more and more.
why do bad things always happen to good people??

Maybe your mother has a problem with your boyfriend other than what happened with your stepdad. Parents number one job is to look out for their childrens care and safety. Among other things. I'm a father of 4 girls and 3 are already past their teen years. If I had a problem with a boyfriend one of them had, I told them both about it. I only want the best for them but also respect their choices. I was there to guide them. So maybe that's what your mother is doing. But I don't know that. As far as your stepdad pushing you, I'd hope he doesn't lay his hands on you at all. There is no reason for it. In my opinion. I also have 3 step kids and would never touch them, ever. My advice to you is know the exact rules to the restraining order. Some include emails etc. Have a sit down heart to heart with your mother and tell her how you feel. Don't be disrespectful to her. Do this with you and her only. No one else in the room. You are at an age where you deserve understanding and some respect, but you need to earn it also. Good luck to you and calling you mother "satans whore" is not respectful. You need to try to see where she's coming from too. Nobody said growing up was easy.